Chapter 1 I remember as a child how often I wanted to gather up my consciousness and rise right up out of my body. I didn't want to be here, couldn’t understand the rules the grown ups played, and why I couldn’t just be me.
"It's because we love you - that we lock you up from harm It's because we love you - that you'll do the things we say It's because we love you - that we sting with wrath and rage It's because we love you - that we like to keep you small It's because we love you - that we'll always think you're wrong It's because we love you - that there's nothing else but home."
Chapter 2 I went to university believing I would finally have the chance to step back into the real me. Instead I found myself drowning in a sea of white faces that guffawed too loudly at their luscious privilege.
"It's because we need you - that you must pass our exams It's because we need you - that you follow our old laws It's because we need you - that you wear our cap and gown It's because we need you - that you take our name and fame It's because we need you - that you feel so out of place It's because we need you - that you've made a big mistake."
Chapter 3 I took my degrees and did what all good grown ups are programmed to do: got a job, bought a house, washed my car, mowed the lawn, and went shopping on Saturdays.
"It's because we own you - that you’ve got that pension plan It's because we own you - that you need that big house loan It's because we own you - that you work so hard and long It's because we own you - that your boss don’t give a damn It's because we own you - that you feel so sad and blue It's because we own you - that you know you can’t go on."
Chapter 4 A few years later something stirred within me and I took a chance on a dream of wild places filled with adventure. On the very first day my soul mate appeared and said from now on he'd travel the road with me.
"It's because I see you - that my yearning heart seeks yours It's because I see you - that you can't brush me aside It's because I see you - that I hold your trembling hand It's because I see you - that I wipe your tears away It's because I see you - that it's us against the world It's because I see you - that I'll stay and see it through."
Chapter 5 Now here I am in the void, the place between worlds, breathing in all the fractals of me, trying to make sense of the whole, keeping my eyes on the hazy light that flickers on and off in the distance.
"It's because I know you - that I'm listening to my soul It's because I know you - that I'm crying all my pain It's because I know you - that I hold my little girl It's because I know you - that I dare to speak my truth It's because I know you - that I save a space for you It's because I know you - that I seek a life that's free.”
... This part is yet to be written, rough drafts scribbled in pencil with crossings out and corrections in the margins. Workings out on the way to cracking the intangible code of all that I AM.
"It's because I love you - that the way is so obscure It's because I love you - that I guide you through the stars It's because I love you - that the lessons are for you It's because I love you - that I've been here all along It's because I love you - that your heart will mend and heal It's because I love you - that I know you love me too.”
